Eckhart Tolle – So I’m not responsible? Cmon!

28 03 2008

I just finished up the Pain-Body chapter in the book.

Let me give a quick disclaimer that while we all have pain bodies as Eckhart describes it, I think mine is pretty small.  I truly had a happy childhood and live a blessed life.   So maybe I’m not coming from a place of authority on this comment.  But in the book Eckart ventures to say that sometimes when you’re acting out, it’s not you that’s  acting out, but your pain-body.

I whole-heartedly and emphatically disagree with that statement.  

One thing I’ve always believed is that we are responsible for ourselves and what happens to us.  Even if you’ve had a crappy childhood, or you have emotional issues.  We are adults, not children.  We do have a say in our actions and reactions.  You are responsible for the words that come out of your mouth, always, no exceptions.  None.  We’ve all made mistakes and said things we regret, but you learn to deal with consequences and take actions to prevent it from happening again.  You can’t go around blaming your pain-body.

Eckhart, you had me up to this point.  You’ve given people a get-out-of-jail-free card.  Now I’ve got to spend some time recovering from that one comment.

11 miles in – why I feel sorry for all the tourists at Breckenridge last weekend

27 03 2008
From 2008-3 Skinne…

We’ve done this trek before – the 11 mile uphill ski into the Skinner Hut, one of Colorado’s 10th Mountain Division Huts. Skinner is just outside of Leadville, CO, a small mountain town that sits at 10,200 ft elevation. This town is so cute in the winter, with its old victorian architecture, brick buildings, and snow packed up to the windows of most of the homes. (Yet we were reminded that this town is ONLY cute in the winter, as the snow covers the “sanford and son” yards full of old tires, engines, trash, and other disposables. Hey, Salvation Army – it’s a goldmine up there!

11 miles really isn’t that bad on skis. The first 7 miles or so are pretty rolling, along a road that cuddles between Turquoise Lake and the forest. After that, the trail heads straight up. For an elevation gain of close to 2000 ft in about 3 or 4 miles. There are some spots, although short lived, that are so steep they challenge the skins on the bottom of your skis. But the steepness makes it possible to wear only a long sleeve shirt even though it’s only 20 degrees outside. And the alternating snow, sun, snow, sun surrounded by the pines and huge mountains, I remember why I love this state.

Skinner Hut itself is well equipped with a raging wood burning stove to heat the hut, a second wood burning stove to cook on, and well if that isn’t enough, four propane burners. There is also a cistern pump to wash your dishes, pots, and pans (also provided by the hut). And the mattress that I slept on was actually more comfortable than the hotel’s in Leadville (or maybe I was just so exhausted that I fell asleep as I was laying down).

From 2008-3 Skinne…

The downsides of the weekend were few:
1 – Both my big toes are black and blue and swollen. Pretty sure I won’t be keeping those toenails!
2 – Constantine – a Russian guy that was up with his friend Matt. His sense of humor was, shall we say, caustic? Hey Constantine – we changed your name to ConstantJERK.
3 – My own head! Our one ski day was very epic, extremely stable, but deep, creamy, untracked snow under blue skies. Yet I was very unnecessarily freaked out by avalanches that I just couldn’t relax enough to enjoy myself. Factor that in with my toes, and crappy, hindering skins, and I was a head case. Damn head!

But the snow and the conditions were truly epic. It was one of those weekends, great weather, fabulous company, unbelievable skiing, one of those weekends where you just have to say thanks.  See for yourself…

From 2008-3 Skinne…
From 2008-3 Skinne…
From 2008-3 Skinne…

South Park – all episodes, all free

27 03 2008

My first introduction to South Park was watching the episode Mr. Hanky the Christmas Poo.  South Park has continued to scar me, gleefully, ever since.

Now I can watch any episode I want to, whenever I want, free!

According to a Wired Blog, ‘Parker and Stone said they were inspired to start the site when they got ‘really sick of having to download our own show illegally all the time. So we gave ourselves a legal alternative.'”

So I did a search for my first and fav episode – and know what came up #2?  Chef’s Chocolate Salty BallsThank you Parker & Stone for continuously pushing the envelope.  It makes life for the rest of us just a little more enjoyable.

Today’s triathalon workout – swim

27 03 2008

Thursday’s training regimen – Swimming

8x50m swim, progressively faster

7×100 with 30 seconds rest between
Note – I did the first 2 with 30 seconds rest in between, then moved to 40 seconds rest.  I also did set #4 as a kick set for a rest, it was kicking my BUTT!

3x100m FAST – this also kicked my booootay!
1x50m kick

But they didn’t say anything about Tequila…

20 03 2008

A new study suggests that BEER, not gender, intelligence, or dumb luck is a significant factor in the success or failure of research scientists. The more beer a scientist drank, the less they were published or were referred to in other scientists publications.

I’m just wondering if the scientist that did the study was drinking beer, given he was published in the NY Times, I wonder if that’s +- 2 standard deviations from the mean?

Read the whole article in the NY Times here…

Vote for this music video – directed by my cousins!

18 03 2008

Cool!  Another fab video by the brothers Nee (Aaron Nee is married to my 1st cousin).

There’s a music video competition going on for Yahoo! Video.  The competition ends Friday the 21st, so get out your vote!  Obama vs Clinton?  Pshaw!  Vote Terrene – Unwelcome!

They’re only 100 votes behind the leader! Click here and select Terrene to vote…

Here’s the video too, but don’t forget to vote by clicking on the link above!

WordPress – give me advertising & domain names!

12 03 2008

I want it my way, and I want it now, and I want it free!

Okay, I know I’m being picky, and probably a little cheap given web hosting is only $4 or $5 a month.  However, I’ve been blogging on and off for a little while, and I do so mostly for my own benefit.  So I’m not really that psyched to pay for it.  If I were doing it for a living, great.  I’d be happy to pay much more.

And I think that WordPress is the greatest blogging software out there.  I used the hosted/free version which limits me a little, but I’m fine with that about 90% of the time.  Because it’s hosted by them, I don’t have to worry about ANYTHING.  It’s easy to set up, fewer features make for fewer problems, I’ve spent literally ZERO time troubleshooting WordPress, and that’s HUGE in my book – so I only have 2 complaints:

1.  Let me put advertisements on my pages!  Seriously.  Keep a portion of the revenues.  My site would probably bring in, what, $15 a YEAR?  So what’s the big deal?  Since you provide me with free hosting, let me advertise and you keep a portion.  Blogger lets me put advertising on my blog.  Why won’t you?

2.  Let me use my own domain name!   Once again, Blogger lets me do this for free, so why would you guys charge me?

I don’t use blogger inspite of the 2 above reasons  because it just isn’t robust enough, and the fatal flaw is that I can’t export my blog should I ever want to switch.  I don’t/won’t/can’t understand this approach.  It’s my content, not theirs.  They shouldn’t hijack it.

Cmon WordPress.  You have great software, most of the blogging community is in agreement with that one.  Just give me these last 2 features!

Eckart Tolle – A New Earth & Oprah’s webcast

10 03 2008

Ever since I left CTEK (my last job) back in Jan 07, I’ve been trying to figure out what I should be doing with myself.  It’s been a quest, thusfar unfruitful.  I’m working, but most, if not all, leaves something to be desired.  My mother, in an effort to help me obtain focus, bought be a book and made me promise to read it, and participate in the corresponding online class.

About the class & book – Eckart Tolle has written a book called A New Earth, Awaken to Your Life’s Purpose.  In partnership with Eckart, Oprah Winfrey has put together a live, online webcast where you can watch and actually participate.  It’s a 10 week long course, or rather a book discussion, with Eckart.  Last week was week 1 and I couldn’t attend, but watched it with Mark (my husband) last night.  I watched Week 2 tonight, live.  Regardless of what you think about the book and the class, it truly is a technological feat what they’ve pulled off.  About 700,000 people watched the show last week, live.  An additional 1.5 million people watched it during the week.  Even if you don’t want ‘spiritual awakening’, you have to appreciate there are a ton of people out there that do, and if this brings people closer to goodness, then Oprah has truly achieved something great.

Anyway, my formal education is in psychology and science, so many times eastern philosophies leave me with many unanswered questions.  I find most of it hoakey, fluffy, lacking substance.  But I did promise my mother…

So I’m at chapter 3, and I’ve watched 2 of Oprah’s & Eckart Tolle’s classes now.  And while much of the conversation is saying the same thing over and over again, I’m finding it rather fascinating.  My quick summary so far is this:

I am different that the sum of my thoughts, my pasts, my future, and my opinions.  Those are things, concepts in my life.  I am an entity that is separate from them, and the more I recognize this, the more in the present I can live.  The more in the present I can live, the happier I can be b/c I am not affected by my past, by other’s impressions of me, or of my wants of tomorrow.  Interesting.

Instead of asking myself what I want to do with the rest of my life, I need to ask the world what it wants from me and how I can best be of service.  This too is a fascinating concept.  It takes me off the pedestal (what?!?) and turns my life into one of other-service instead of me-service.

Be at one with nature – this is a quick way to shed the “ego”, which is my past, my thoughts, my opinions.  I do this already though so this isn’t a new lesson for me.

So this morning, I sat in complete silence and stillness in my living room.  It gets great morning light and this is where most of my plants reside.  I sat there and tried to quiet my mind as much as possible for as long as possible, and when my mind went active again, I tried to redirect it to ‘asking the world how I can best service it’.  I’m not exactly sure how I’m supposed to know when the world answers me, but I sure hope it does and I can recognize it for what it is.

This has been my first ‘spiritual journey’ and I’m keeping as open of a mind as I can.  If you are interested in discovering your life’s purpose, go buy the book, and sign up for Oprah.  I’ll keep blogging about my experienes on my first spiritual journey.

Short bike ride – 110 days to go

10 03 2008

I got on my bike for the first time all season today.  I didn’t want it to be a long ride, just to get my ass used to the saddle again and explore a little bit about our new neighborhood (Vista Ridge, Erie).

Let me say that while my crotch is sore for not-fun reasons, Erie is a fabulous place to ride.  I went about 14 miles in about 35 minutes, on a paved road with little to no traffic, rolling hills, huge cottonwoods, the late afternoon sun, and miles and miles of farmland with the mountains as a backdrop.

I just felt the need to say thank you to the world for the great day today.

I want to be born old

10 03 2008

I’ve always thought it would be so fabulous to be born old and grow young – then my sister forwarded this to me from Woody Allen…

“In my next life I want to live my life backwards. You start out dead and get that out of the way. Then you wake up in an old people’s home feeling better every day. You get kicked out for being too healthy, go collect your pension, and then when you start work, you get a gold watch and a party on your first day.  You work for 40 years until you’re young enough to enjoy your retirement. You party, drink alcohol, and are generally promiscuous, then you are ready for high school. You then go to primary school, you become a kid, you play. You have no responsibilities, you become a baby until you are born. And then you spend your last 9 months floating in luxurious spa like conditions with central heating and room service on tap, larger quarters every day and then Voila! You finish off as an orgasm!”

Love it.